Friday, October 13, 2006
could i ever feel more torn inside?
could i ever be more confused?
is he really the one? what if i hold on and fight this losing battle, only to be left alone few years down the road? what if i think i'm strong enough to face his family and hold on to loving him only to realise i'm not strong enough? what if we ended it right now, what will happen? what if we continued, then what happens?
is happiness now worth the misery i'll have to endure in future? or should i endure pain now, and hope for some light of happiness in future? what if his so used to be single, he won't remember what it used to be like when we were together? what if he realises he doesn't like the person i've become? what if i realise i don't like the person he is now? two years is a long time...
can i wait three months? i mean, of course i can wait...but how much pain will i be subjected to within this three months? where can i find the security i get only from him, when he's not here? what if after three months, he made up his mind and decided we can't be together? then what happens???
i'm trying to be strong for him, but who will be strong for me? i'm not strong enough to go through this..three months...ahh i'm tired.
i just need someone to hold me and tell me everything will be alright..
i can't handle this
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