Tuesday, October 10, 2006
i went for a walk during Weekly Activity Hour. the EAs didn't join in today because of the haze. so i walked by myself..it's so quiet at kallang river..
gave me some time to think. well, not think..rather be alone.
how stupid i've been to think we had a chance. naive even.. but what i would give to try again. no.. as he said, two years is just far too long. what am i so worried about anyways? that he might have been the one, and i've missed the chance at a happy ending? what if he wasn't the one. am i lucky enough to be blessed with true love once again? maybe... maybe not.
yes, i've hurt him. the damage is irreparable. but effort and determination won't suffice in rebuilding the fallen foundations? i thought things could always be fixed. but maybe i'm looking at it wrongly, this isn't a building destroyed..its like water evaporated. whatever we do..we can't get back what we had initially. i;ve been so naive, so starry-eyed to think the willingness to try again would be enough to work things out. but no di..not everything is this simple.
i won't live like this for long..at least i have kak dirah. sorry for calling you crying so many times. i can't help it..i can't talk to anyone else.
ps: win come home soon. i'm ready. no point waiting. i'm certain now. i'm sticking with our agreement. lest, i really meet someone (which i doubt), i'll be ready for the e. word..... at least i'll be comfortable yea..send you a package soon!!!!!
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