Tuesday, April 10, 2007
the boy who stops me thinking rationally
what can i say, we went out last sunday, [uhuh same day i landed]
had coffee [or more accurately cold cuppa chocolate and err don't know what he had.. a latte?] and cheesecakes! then watched a movie [won't disclose title, lol, let's just say some things are meant to be kept between us. *grins*] and dinner at nydc, then we went to borders. guys out there, that's what i'd call a date. lol
but i was so unprepared. i must've left my brains in the plane cause godknows i'd never ever let my guard down so fast. after the izal episode, i've kept a safe distance between guys. and i've grown so used to my wall. then i had to meet. and ok i hate to admit this, but heyy its my blog, and i think i should be as honest as i can. i don't even know much about him. i'd love to learn more about him though.
i do have to say my thanks to nuu for scolding me last night. [thats not sarcastic yeah] if she didn't say i was being so timid and afraid to open myself up, to forget about what izal did, and that not every guy will do that and err oh ya she said he wouldn't dare hurt me cause i'm her bestfriend. that girl ahh, i don't understand it. what do you see in me that i fail to see myself? why do you always have to stand up for me before i have faith in myself? i love you nuu. i do, and the only reason i've decided to let him in i because i trust you and your judgement. so if i do get hurt, its your blardi fault. lol i'm only kidding. what's love without pain? it's true, i know, like you said, i can't keep running away. this will happen to the next guy, so why not brave it and do it yeah....
"an epiloque of grieve, shadowy blanket over me, hold my hand through, and never let go, til we see daylight"
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