Friday, May 11, 2007
i have yet to assimilate to the newfound crazeeness in my life. i find myself in a constant emotional disorganization, a rather tiring mental battle of to do's and not to do's. and especially with this new status quo having rather invisible demarkations, i am left to assume assume and assume. like when i go out, do i let him know? if i missed him, do i call him or just wait til he calls? when someone expresses feelings for me, do i tell him? when i need to cry but i know his busy, do i call him? when i'm going for a night walk, do i tell him? simple questions. but its amazing how many times i find myself questioning my actions. just a minute ago, i glanced at my hp, and thought..do i or do i not call him? simple questions on the surface.. but deeper, my brain ticks with other questions, fears, worries and godknowswhat. where do i stand as a girlfriend? am i entitled to certain things? is he making too much sacrifices for me? does he love me? does he know what love is? am i being a good girlfriend? is he really serious about the future? do i get this attached to him so early? mygodthisquestions.
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