Friday, May 11, 2007
so many things have happened and suddenly, we'll be together a whole month this 12th. we couldn't even name all the places we've been together. 30 days, and literally hundreds of memories made, memories that i know i'll one day forget. and don't even mention the fights.. yep ladies and gentlemen, our first month together has been filled with fights, tears, more fights and more tears. not to say the time spent together hasn't been immacutely unimaginably wonderful.. it has.. just that probably when two ppl feel so strongly about each other, even the smallest mistake gets blown up, over-analysed, misinterpreted, and well..argument ensues. who ever said use fire to fight fire? it doesn't work. period. we figured that at least we have this terrible fights now, get the things out of our system then live happily ever after. we estimated two months of this baddd fights... and then the road to our happiness will hopefully be less.. bumpy. we've even fought about religion. a touchy topic that has in many occasions caused couples to separate. i've seen it happen to my own cousin. a pity. it was hard fighting with brian. you should've seen me. i was crying in the toilet under the shower. i nearly choked a few times with the water raining down on me while i forced myself to cry silently. i got to a point where it was difficult to stand up and all i could do was squat with water pouring down on me.. and i just.. bawled. trust me, it took every ounce of me not to go get a few bottles an smokes or the fastest remedy -my piriton pills. i knew if i had to cry anymore, the only solution was sleep and 4 piriton pills would've knocked me out cold. but instead i called nuha. and just listened. it kinna stopped me from doing anything stupid. well, thank god its over. and we've survived. we have a long way to go. i think his the one. my heart now hopes, and my brain thinks.. of the future we'll have together.
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